my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
Its been raining.. since morning. I can't go out to get the stuffs I want and am stuck at home. Sigh. So here I am blogging while listening to some music and chatting with some friends on MSN. No-life. Haha. I've already completed MOST of my part of workfor the IAC dumbass project. Whew. Finally.. after for like dragging for several weeks.
Its so boring. Duh. I wanna get a job but I doubt my parents will approve of it. I'm broke.. no money buy new clothes for chinese new year. How?? Haha. Another point is of course to keep myself really busy so I would not have time to think of other stuffs.
I've been missing him like crazy. I guess I'm gonna lie to myself if I really say I want nothing in return. People have always been saying that as long as the person you love is happy then they'll be happy too. Well.. I think its a lie.
I'm gonna lie to myself. Haha. Its really so god damn tiring to love someone.. infatuation that is. Though I hope its otherwise and not what I thought it was, things never really go my way. I would just have to wait. I know I would not be able to give up though I always try to lie to myself that I would be able to find a better person.
In others' eyes, he might not be perfect, might not be handsome and might not have the perfect chracter. Though I know nobody is perfect but I still think he is perfect in everything to me. Beauty in the eyes of the beholder. Haha. Still, I'll never gonna stop loving him.
Everybody is gonna leave my blog soon if I continue bull-shitting about that topic. After typing this post for so long and its still raining la.
I'm gonna miss those last few magical moments of 2005.. which I spent with him. Ow.. Beautiful night it is. Nothing changed in me but maybe it has in him.
I'm gonna gameee like thats no tomorrow.. wait. Maybe until the rain stop then I'm going out. Till then. Adios.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
walking this empty street.
the girl: Mellissa (Yukik0)
d.o.b: 7/11/1988
age: 17+
school: ngee ann poly
email: mellissa_tan@hotmail.com
MIRC nick: PinkYuki` (hardly there unless damn bored)
on a boulevard of broken dreams.
#1loves GOD
#2loves HIM
#3loves her beloved friends
#4loves her guitar
#5loves her family
#6loves to spend time with him
#7loves every single thing from him
the lonely soul lingers.
#1wish for him to love me just like I do for him
#2wish to get a 3G phone
#3wish to get a job
#4wish to grow close to god once again
#5wish to spend very single minute with him
the girl: Mellissa (Yukik0)